Hello Reiki Forum
Those who have been following my thread concerning that reiki master and my question as to whether reiki can be misused please if you can help me now please do.
About 3 this afternoon I began feeling about as horrible as a person can feel...physically....and emotionally....just totally yukky. This is not normal for me. I am not some drama queen and am not looking for attention but this is so unusual for me to feel this way and for it to come on so suddenly and...no...i do not have the flu...and no...i did not eat something that was old or that could make me ill....and nothing unusual was happening....just straight out of the blue i began feeling like total death.
The thing is that this reiki master when he was sending me positive and healing energy this is exactly how the energy came to me....suddenly and out of the blue....but of course it was wonderful and healthy and made me feel just great and wonderful and it would go on for a long long time.
So that all of a sudden this "came on" but such a horrible way of feeling makes me wonder if this is not as i have suggested and that this man is able to use reiki improperly.
About the only thing different is that last night i finally stopped fantasizing that this man ever loved me and as a couple of very sober friends of mine have been trying to convince me to let go of him well i was not able to till last night. After i did i felt very relieved and had no feelings of loss about the only feelings i did have were that how i could have been taken in by this man and all the time i had wasted. But that was ok because i realized that this was a lesson i had to learn and ok so it took some time. Also i was thinking and i forget if i shared here that this man informed me about a month or so ago that this woman he had been having a long term once a month sexual relationship with when he dumped her last november for me she had a complete psychotic break and he told me she had lost close to 40 kilos and was still in a mental hospital. So ok he almost drove me nuts and he did drive this other woman nuts for sure and i then began to think that this man is 59 years old and two women in one year it just seemed a bit strange and then i got to thinking that it is quite unlikely that me and this woman who do not even know each other are the first two he has done his best to damage. I mean patterns develop over long time and so i figured he has likely been damaging women for a very very long time and this bothered me.
There of course is nothing i can do as he lives in Germany and i live very far from there. He has one of the most responsible jobs highly respected jobs and i know very little about him and i do not believe there is anything i could do to stop him as i am sure i wont be the last but i know i cannot stop him. I do not speak German my job is ok but no way as prestigious as his the bottomline is at least on paper he comes across as a much more reliable and repectable person and i have no clout and if he has harmed other women i would not know who they are as i do not even know the name of this woman he drove insane last november.
I wrote him last night and basically told him to leave me alone and stay out of my world and never bother me again.
So thats the story. Please help me if you can as i feel so horrible but of course i sure as hell cannot go off and complain to the authorities that i am being abused by some guy that is sending me negative energy my god they would lock me up lol.
fluugy
Those who have been following my thread concerning that reiki master and my question as to whether reiki can be misused please if you can help me now please do.
About 3 this afternoon I began feeling about as horrible as a person can feel...physically....and emotionally....just totally yukky. This is not normal for me. I am not some drama queen and am not looking for attention but this is so unusual for me to feel this way and for it to come on so suddenly and...no...i do not have the flu...and no...i did not eat something that was old or that could make me ill....and nothing unusual was happening....just straight out of the blue i began feeling like total death.
The thing is that this reiki master when he was sending me positive and healing energy this is exactly how the energy came to me....suddenly and out of the blue....but of course it was wonderful and healthy and made me feel just great and wonderful and it would go on for a long long time.
So that all of a sudden this "came on" but such a horrible way of feeling makes me wonder if this is not as i have suggested and that this man is able to use reiki improperly.
About the only thing different is that last night i finally stopped fantasizing that this man ever loved me and as a couple of very sober friends of mine have been trying to convince me to let go of him well i was not able to till last night. After i did i felt very relieved and had no feelings of loss about the only feelings i did have were that how i could have been taken in by this man and all the time i had wasted. But that was ok because i realized that this was a lesson i had to learn and ok so it took some time. Also i was thinking and i forget if i shared here that this man informed me about a month or so ago that this woman he had been having a long term once a month sexual relationship with when he dumped her last november for me she had a complete psychotic break and he told me she had lost close to 40 kilos and was still in a mental hospital. So ok he almost drove me nuts and he did drive this other woman nuts for sure and i then began to think that this man is 59 years old and two women in one year it just seemed a bit strange and then i got to thinking that it is quite unlikely that me and this woman who do not even know each other are the first two he has done his best to damage. I mean patterns develop over long time and so i figured he has likely been damaging women for a very very long time and this bothered me.
There of course is nothing i can do as he lives in Germany and i live very far from there. He has one of the most responsible jobs highly respected jobs and i know very little about him and i do not believe there is anything i could do to stop him as i am sure i wont be the last but i know i cannot stop him. I do not speak German my job is ok but no way as prestigious as his the bottomline is at least on paper he comes across as a much more reliable and repectable person and i have no clout and if he has harmed other women i would not know who they are as i do not even know the name of this woman he drove insane last november.
I wrote him last night and basically told him to leave me alone and stay out of my world and never bother me again.
So thats the story. Please help me if you can as i feel so horrible but of course i sure as hell cannot go off and complain to the authorities that i am being abused by some guy that is sending me negative energy my god they would lock me up lol.
fluugy








